I recently turned 36-years-old. During my lifetime there have been many decisions made. Some wonderful and some not so wonderful.
When I was little, I made a decision that I wanted to take dance classes. That was a wonderful decision. When I was older, I made some decisions that ended up with me getting pregnant before I graduated high school. The decisions were not so wonderful, but the result of those decisions was a blessing that is turning 18 this August.
At one point I thought that I had fallen in love and left my son with my parents to go to Texas to establish a life there for us. I wanted to get our home ready and a job that I could support us with before I uprooted him from Arizona. That was a horrid decision. The person that I had fallen for was a horrible person who did horrible things. Thankfully, I realized it and got out of the situation before I ended up in a situation where my son no longer had a mother to raise him.
When I got back I had a lot of things to think about, and a life to build for me and my son. That’s where husband number one comes into play. Not going to lie, it was great at first. Shortly after though it turned to shit. Do I regret that marriage? No. It lead me to the place that I am at right now in life, and for that I am thankful.
The biggest decision that I made in my life that ended up being a turning point was deciding that I was worth loving and that whoever I ended up with was going to love me and my kiddo. That my son and I deserved a good life and that just because it was the two of us didn’t mean that it was the end of the world, and that I was going to be single forever. That he would miss out on having a father in his life. That turning point allowed me to open up my heart to bringing someone else into our lives and shortly thereafter I met my amazing husband. The man that I have been with for 15 years and have two amazing sons with. He stepped up when the “donor” wanted to have nothing to do with anything. He stepped up and adopted our son and gave me another amazing child to boot.
Had I not made that decision to allow love into my life I don’t know where I’d be today. I was lonely and not sure where my life was heading. I had to think about more than myself, but at the time I couldn’t see a way forward where a happy momma meant a happy son. For me it was a hard decision to make, but it was the best one I could have done. We are worthy of what we have and I am so lucky and blessed that we have it.